Maybe I should clear something up. I am not a Bible scholar. I have not attended seminary; I haven’t taken a single class. I read the Bible, but not as much as I should. I pray daily, but not as long as I should. What I know about God I’ve learned over many years by going to church, reading the Bible, and listening to smart people. My relationship with God is personal and has grown over the years as a result of many, many long talks with Him.
But sometimes I question things. Have you ever heard of a doubting Thomas? That’s me. My faith is strong but not blind. My eyes are wide open; and so are my questions. Through my adult life I have not doubted God’s existence or what Jesus’ death and resurrection mean to me. But, sometimes I have trouble understanding things that don’t fit neatly in my logical brain.
And I doubt I’m the only one who has questions. There are things about God that are hard to grasp. For example, how can God be both the Father and the Son? I’ve heard people who are asked that question respond with, “Because the Bible said so. That’s it. Period.” And, sometimes that is all we have. But it still doesn’t answer the question.
Jesus said in John 10:30, “I and the Father are one.” And I believe Him. But would I have ever come up with a concept like that if I were writing a novel? No! The idea of two persons existing as one Godhead is not something I would have ever made up. It’s too farfetched. No one would believe it. And yet, there it is. And just because I don’t understand it doesn’t make it any less true.
But I’ll tell you something I really appreciate about God. He knew I would have a hard time understanding. Let’s face it, He didn’t expect everyone would just say, “Oh, yeah, there’s two, no, make that three separate and distinct entities, but they’re all really just one God.” How could anyone with a logical mind just believe that without giving it a second thought? Outside of the Trinity it just doesn’t happen.
But look at what God did for us. He gave us permission to not understand. He guided Paul’s hand as he wrote in Philippians 2:6, “Christ Jesus, who although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped.” That is truly God’s wisdom. Not only did He know we wouldn’t be able to grasp it, He told us as much. Believe it? Most Definitely. Grasp it? Not likely. On this side of eternity we live in the physical realm. God exists in the spiritual realm. So of course it’s difficult, if not impossible for us in our physical form to fully understand. One day we will. But not today.
Today, I’m just thankful He gave permission to a doubting Thomas like me to admit that I don’t understand everything. As a matter of fact, you could say he doubted my ability from the very beginning of time. And that, my friends, is a God I can believe in.
Thom Fishow
September 26, 2010



David Williams